What if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?
Blessings – Laura Story
I heard this song on my way home from work yesterday. It was before I learned of Cheryl’s passing. This song has always touched me. When I saw that her life here on Earth was over the only thing I wanted to do was sleep. I don’t know if subconsciously I thought if I slept that I would wake up and this news wouldn’t be real or if I just didn’t feel like I could handle it right at that moment, but I went to bed.
Sleep did not come. I felt so much sorrow. So much loss. It’s always hard to lose the ones we love, but it seems so much harder when you’re just not ready to see them go. When my great grandmother passed away, I was sad but I had known for a while that her time was coming. Her mind would come and go, and her body was just simply worn out. It was time. It was welcomed.
But Cheryl, I was not (maybe still not) ready to let her go. I have been praying for her healing for months now. We hadn’t had enough time with her. I know that it’s selfish to still want her here when she has experienced so much suffering. As I lay in bed all I could do was think of the all the memories that I shared with her. I knew her my entire life. She taught me so much. With sobs intermingled with laughter I recalled the following life lessons from Cheryl.
1.How you address someone is dependent upon the setting. As I mentioned before Cheryl has been involved in my entire life. She taught some of the classes that I was in at church when I was very young, but when I was in 3rd grade she also became my social studies teacher at school. I had been prepped ahead of time by parents and grandparents that in school I was to call her Miss Allison. I did great the first day. the second day I accidentally called her Cheryl. She gently reminded me that at school she was Miss Allison. When I saw her at church later in the week I called her Miss Allison. She told me it was okay to call her Cheryl at church. I told her this was confusing and hard. She told me I would get the hang of it. I did. Now I know when to address friends with professional titles or to call them by name.
2. How to encourage others. In that 3rd grade social studies class she put up with some pretty annoying 7 and 8 year olds and their shenanigans. I like to think we were simply preparing her for success in the future. Even though we might have been a nightmare to deal with, she never let us see her disappoint (or fear; my class was known to strike fear in even the most prepared substitute teacher) or frustration. She simply encouraged us. I remember one particular assignment was to draw the U.S. Capitol Building. She told one student that his drawing looked more like a spaceship than the Capitol Building, but it was a very good spaceship. Cheryl never failed to have an encouraging word. She also taught me that stapler can easily be turned into weapon in that class, but that’s an entirely different lesson.
3. Fun can happen anywhere, anytime with anyone. When I was in 5th grade my Sunday school class memorized the books of the Bible. As a reward Cheryl, Sandra and Mike took us to stay a weekend in a cabin in New Harmony. We laughed so much that weekend. We called the church van “The Party Bus”. We made toilet paper hats and some wore Nanny socks. We drove by people driving slowly trying videotape the beauty of nature with deer that were just off the road, and we yelled “Your door’s ajar!” as we sped by. Cheryl almost caught the tree on fire trying to light the grill. We also realized the when the windshield wipers were down spraying washer fluid was like shooting a laser from the side van. We may or may not have tried to hit some of the deer with it. Who knew 5th and 6th graders could really be friends with adults? The fun didn’t end as I grew up. My sarcasm was never lost on Cheryl. I could always count on her for a witty reply. I’m happy to say that as I grew up I was able to join her as an adult befriending members of our church youth group.
4. How to mentor others. I always view Cheryl as one of my greatest mentors. In my 30 years on this planet I have looked up to many people. Sadly, most of them have a found a way to let me down. People are imperfect. I recognize that, but Cheryl was one of the people that never let me down. She didn’t try to hide her faults or struggles. She lived a life that was real, sometimes messy, but always beautiful. When I was in chiropractic school I went through a time of indecision. I wasn’t sure where God was leading me. So I called on a few individuals that I knew I could count on to help me find my way. Cheryl always made a point to encourage me that I was doing the right thing and to remind me that God’s plan and timing are perfect. She was also there with a good kick in the pants when that’s what I really needed. After completing chiropractic school I moved back home to start practicing and I found myself in a new role at church. I began teaching the senior high youth Sunday school class. I’m not sure I had ever felt more out of my comfort zone, and that includes the time that I ended up teaching and adult Sunday school class filled with people double to triple times my age. That was intimidating. Teaching the youth class was terrifying. But Cheryl helped lead me. She showed me how important it was to be involved in there lives, and how important encouragement in this stage of their lives really was.
As I look back on the life that Cheryl so graciously shared with us all. I know that best way that I can honor her memory is to take these lessons and teach them to others. So when dealing with friends in a professional setting address them with the appropriate title, but remember that you’re still just friends in more familiar settings. Always find a way to encourage others even when they may not be at their best. Don’t forget to have fun in life. Laughter is too precious to be passed up. Finally, mentor others. Take the wisdom that the important people in your life have given you and share it with the world.
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?
Blessings – Laura Story
Last night was one of those hardest nights, but these lessons were the blessing.
Cheryl, you will be missed by so many, but your impact will live on for many years. Rest in peace.